Do I want chocolate or vanilla?
*Stares at chocolate labeled frozen yogurt dispenser
Hmm, when was the last time I had Golden Spoon’s delectable chocolate delights. I think it was about a year ago. Wow, where was that? Oh, ya, that was so much fun hanging out with her, I should text her. I wonder what she’s doing now. Wait, did I have chocolate or chocolate malt. Oooo I miss the afternoons after soccer practice, still buzzing from finally making a goal during a scrimmage, refueling with sugar to shake off the salty feeling of sweat drying on my naked shins. Only, 10 minutes before did I finally rip off those dreaded shin guards.
Wait, focus. What about vanilla? You always get chocolate and then you have two bites and it’s too rich. You know you really just want a small vanilla swirl with snowcaps to top it off. Mum always gets vanilla and I always want the smallest taste, just to remember how sweet simplicity melts so lightly onto my tongue. Reminding me of sick days spent away from school. I cuddled in bed with a book, dreaded strep throat medicine sitting and waiting to quickly be engulfed and the large bowl of vanilla bean ice cream watching patiently, awaiting for me do dive into it: the reward.
Frankie… it’s just ice cream. Pick one, you can get a different flavor next time.
What if Golden Spoon closes and there is no next time?
Well then you find a new sweet spot to indulge at.
This is how my mind works, WITH EVERY DECISION. However simple they may be, I complicate them to the fullest extent and end up contemplating my life existence. If I eat this today then I won’t be able to eat that tomorrow. Or, if I read this book then I won’t have time to go on a run. If I pursue this career, I won’t be able to do something else in the future. It becomes a strenuous and high-anxiety driven process for almost everything. What if decisions weren’t as hard as they seemed and the big ones could be broken down into smaller ones.
If I follow this path in my life, this will happen. Actually, that’s not true; we can’t predict what is going to happen in the future. (Please refer to the link which puts “free will” into perspective) Now this isn’t to say that life is a series of random events. I will say that a series of small decisions, made by the same mindset, will create a lifeline directly related to the moral compass of that same individual’s mindset. It’s the same idea as being mindful, considering possibilities as they fall in front of you. Looking at every opportunity as a new life path. Think of how one decision can effect your life in the next ten years, too difficult and unrealistic? Think again. What about the city you live in? The relationships you choose to make, keep, and sadly leave behind. The institutions you dedicate your time too. Do you support the people you surround yourself with? Or do you question them?
A Contemporary Introduction to Free Will - Kane
If every decision you made could effect the rest of your life how would you proceed?
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Also, I would like to thank a friend for supporting my writing in this space. For that I am also attaching this blueberry bread pudding recipe - it’s scrumptious.